MOVED. Again.

This blog will be deleted in either 27 or 28 days' time.

Okok, due to impromptu nonsense ytd I was unable to update. -bows head in apology to stell & co.- Anyhow I was hoping Alex would've sent the pics already, but unfortunately not. I hope she didn't forget. T_T

Ytd the four of us went off to Jurong Point (again) because there was no other place we could think of going and it was nearer anyway. Plus, it had sweettalk, old chang kee, comics connection and blah, all in one. XD

Yesyes. So I met Alex on the LRT she was on after waiting for like minutes. >.>" And so we struck up casual conversation as we took the train and blah to JE interchange, where we found ourselves a seat facing the lift and waited for Stell & Jia En. Yeah. Then somehow the conversation became how the lift was always at the ground floor...

Me: See, the lift doesn't like you.
Alex: No, I think it doesn't like you. 
Me: ?
Alex: Once you walk off ah, it will come up.
Me: Oh really. -calls Stell to check where they are; she's not even on the mrt lol >.>- Alala. How many stops to Boon Lay ah?
Alex: Go check. I think it's three.
Me: -wanders off to board- Oh three stations.
-lift comes up-
Alex: SEE? The lift doesn't like you.
Me: ...

Utter lameness, but oh well. XD

So after repeating myself twice to Stell ("madame, where might you be now? XD"), she finally reached JE interchange with Jia En. Alex and I missed 5 Boon Lay trains while waiting. =X Yeah, anyway we went off to JP, and spotted two bubble tea shops, one was sweettalk and one was juicy. So we went to sweettalk first, then lingered there cos the sign only showed deserts somehow. Then the lady came and said, "if you want drinks, go to juicy." So we went to juicy, and wondered why the hell a sweettalk outlet would split itself up into dessert and drink, and under two different names some more. (the cups at juicy had sweettalk's logo, and besides the standard is the same) -.- Well that's something we'll never know I guess.

Righty... then we had to decide between Macdonald, KFC, Long John Silver and Mos Burger for lunch. And Jia En came up with a very lame but ingenious way... have decisions made by scissors paper stone. -.-

Jia En: Ok, Stella is Mos Burger, then Alexis is Long John Silver, I'm KFC and you're Macdonald. (I think it was like that, was it? >.>)

At the end of it, Long John won, followed by Macs, then KFC, then Mos. -.-

But we didn't eat at Long John cos it was still in morning whatever thing. So we went KFC instead. Took a pic of our popcorn chickens and sweettalks (pics still with alex!); before that alex and stell were squabbling over who should buy cheese fries and popcorn chicken... jeez. XD

Yeah. Then we went Kiddy palace to take our photos. In the fitting room. So we went to look for some kiddy dresses that we could wear... and Alex came across a real small white dress for 3 -4 years old. She'd been squabbling with stell (again) over whether it was a top or a dress and stell was already laughing damn hard when she turned to me...

Alex: Do you think this is a top or a dress?
Me: (without thinking) A top la.
Stell: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA -squats on the ground and laughs-

Ok. Then the first time stell and I managed to get into a changing room, the two others didn't come in. Which wasted one chance. So we went back to the dress section and Jia En found a kung fu panda toy sword. Apparently it makes chopping and shooting sounds. She was having a lot of fun randomly making the sounds. Well well. Oh yeah, did I mention stell and I were hugging the eeyore stuff toys before we went to the fitting room? They're so cuddly but they're worth $39++. -.- Anyway we made them talk to each other and kiss each other. Then Jia En used a pooh bear to whack the eeyores. Ouch.

Ah, anyway, we finally managed to squeeze into the fitting room, where we tried to make sure all 4 of us was visible while taking photos. Alex said the toilets in JP had mirrors. I said it was a public area. She said there were mirrors in the cubicle. I couldn't quite imagine 4 of us squeezing inside one cubicle... would be even weirder than squeezing into one fitting room.

I don't know how long we spent there, but oh well. XD. Halfway through I had a call from mum though. XD

Then we went to Toys'R'us, which wasn't as fun as Kiddy Palace. Next we went to comics connection where I tried digging around for my psp game but to no avail. I found Sono muko no mukogawa, (the inclusion of the original title is just to piss people off =X) aka Beyond the Beyond. >.> Vol.5! Finally! After centuries of waiting! :D 

I saw an xxxHolic purple album book thingy which I don't really know contains what (should be a collector's item indeed), and it was $32, and I was so so sooooooooooooooo tempted to buy it I tell you. xxxHolic! And I've never seen that anywhere at all! So cool. But uh, deciding it was just a temptation of the moment, I didn't. T_T Well, if I'm still regretting not buying it by the time dad comes back again, then I can probably take it as not a temptation of the moment.

Right, then we went toilet, and Jia En and I sat in front of the mirror and read our manga. LOL. 

Then we just wandered around JP, into This Fashion, where we probably spent centuries trying to help Stell decide between her two shirts (LOL). So yeah, after much persuasion/discouragement she only bought the same shirt as I did. Wahahaha. :D Next we went wallet shop where I found a nice purse (poof goes the money), and then Stell was sorely tempted to buy shoes but she didn't, and we went Old Chang Kee instead to eat.

Next we ran off to an empty shoe shop (empty of customers la, duh), and sat down, with Stell pretending to er, be interested in some shoes. Then she sat down to try one, put it back, and didn't get up again. XD. Somehow the minute we entered people started streaming in, and then a whole lot of aunties sauntered in, which made me wonder if we were in the wrong shop... 

After the salesperson started standing next to us very very suspiciously... we hurriedly left for the mrt. XD

Bidding goodbye, Alex and I counted down the months to our next meeting before we parted... which is approximately 4 months. Bwah. Anyways, as I was leaving BPP lrt station I got a call from my maths tutor telling me she was downstairs... which made me go oh shit. Nobody wants tuition on a hol ok. Especially when it's youth day. -.-

But well, so as not to waste bus fares, train fares, and whatever fares, I had tuition ytd. And after that I was too lazy to blog, and I was intending to wait for the pics anyway. But I won't wait anymore. :D Hahaha.

And thus I conclude our youth day outing. Counting down four months to the next outing with ya peeps! :D

Me: -trying shorts at home-
Mum: Aiyo! The button reach until here you know! -tugs- Looks like you put on some weight.
Me:  ... time to lose weight.

Oh no. I'm getting fat.

I'm regretting so many things, and wishing so many other things could be real.

I wish I took 8 subs; I'd be able to take both bio and chem then.
I look at some teachers; I wish they were teaching us.
I look at some teachers; I wish they'd just get out of my life.
I look at my schedule; I feel like I'm going to die.

I regret my PSLE score, which sentenced me to 4 years of hell.
I wish I'd gone to Kranji or CSS; maybe with a close friend it'd be more bearable.
I look at myself; I wonder what possessed me to make such crappy decisions.

There were only ever three teachers I admired and respected in this school; now only two of them are teaching us.
I look at the one who isn't; I feel a pang of loss and frustration.
I look at her teaching other classes; I wish so hard I could be there instead.
The one whom I respected and admired the most, is the one who is not teaching me at all.
Her teaching methods are as ordinary and simple as can be. But I learn, and I know I do.
As fierce as she is, she has a kind and understanding heart within.

I wish I wasn't left alone, the day we graduated from IJ.
I wish the school never underwent PRIME, that the building we spent 5 years in still existed.
I wish I was not left with nothing but mere memories, that time can pick and erase.
I look at the new CHIJOLQOP; I feel no connection to it at all.
I look at the 6 Peacians; I still feel that sense of family I find nowhere else outside of my biological one.

I look at Alexis; I remember the secret times we spent in the science garden, just the two of us.
I look at Stella; I remember the times where we poured our hearts out to each other. I felt just like a sister to you.
I look at Jia En; I remember our little frolickings on anime/manga over MSN. And of course, our (tiny) argument over Galatea.
I look at Wan Yi; I remember how I tried to worm my way out of getting my hair decorated by Mandy and you.
I look at Amanda; I remember the two of us squeezing under a blanket, shining lights up and pretending we were in another world. I still remember our song, though I don't know if you do.
I wish I could be back to those times. Not here, not now.

I look at my current surroundings, I feel no love, but only hatred.
I look at what I have to do; I feel a sense of loathing.
I look at the school gates; I wish I never have to step in again.
I wish I could just take my O levels now, get out of this school, and never return.
I look at my memories; I wish to remember nothing of the present.
I look at the now; I know what I lost when I left IJ.

I will always call myself an IJ girl; never a student of my current school.
I will always remember CHIJBT; maybe even CHIJOLQOP, but never my current school.
I feel no connection with my current school. I never will.

I have an intermittent headache. It's pissing me off. My nose ran away. That pisses me off further. Yesterday night was horrible. I kept sleeping and then waking up, and sleeping again, starting from early morning. I gave up at around 9am and got up. I didn't go to school. I wouldn't want to anyway, since I reached home so bloody late. Others might be able to survive with a fraction of the sleep I need, but for me, I need my beauty sleep. I can sleep a lot. Well honestly speaking I do need to sleep quite a lot. Call me a pig. Whatever. I've been called worser names before and she still thought it was like some joke. Well I treated it like one anyway, so heck. :D

I'm so tired. I have absolutely no motivation whatsoever to do anything. I just feel like sleeping but my body is awake, it's just my eyes. And brain maybe. Abba God help me. 

IhaveJesus.Everythingwillbeokay. *grits teeth* 

GAH DDDAAAAMMMNNNNIIIITTTTT. Thissucks.

I should pray more in tongues. I really, really should.